Now that school is about done, I suddenly am exhausted.  I can barely keep my eyes open past 10:30pm.  I have no more fight in me for the silly things that go on at work.  When not actively doing something, I sit and look around and I have to really work to think about things.  Is this relaxationI hate this! I don’t want a break… I want to stay on and productive.  It’s easy to just stay semi-busy and not do more, but that’s easy.  It’s like watching a movie.  A movie called ‘My Life’.  Some people make the movies and some people watch them.  I know, you funny person you, asking ‘if everyone made movies, then who would watch them?’  Hey, maybe no one would watch them because people would have evolved.  Oh don’t worry.  Not like someone’s going to make humanism viral… then poof…  Cultural, psychological evolution.  Get out!  Oh, I know, not likely.  It’s all so naive and idealistic.  But that’s what this is about.  A profession is just something you do while you wait for something else to happen.  Unless your job is to make things happen.  That’s cool.  I want a job like that…

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