Class is running right along.  Fortunately I only have architecture this semester.  I keep hitting a wall when it comes to staying up late and remembering to do a thousand things at once and processing the multitude of activities going on this August and September.  I’m usually good at doing too much and keeping every detail at hand.  What’s happening?  My hubby says my subconscious knows school is almost done and so my survival mode is wearing off.  Simple as that.  Unfortunately, in my brief experience to date with interviewing, I’m expected to already be a computer genius.  I couldn’t even get an unpaid internship I recently discussed with someone because I wasn’t ‘ready to hit the ground running’ and didn’t have any of my own work posted online to show ‘my passion for computing’.  Humph.  I thought going to school while working full-time and raising three small kids was an excellent show of passion.  I was also told ‘no!’ about an opportunity in my own company because they needed someone ‘ready to hit the ground running’.  Can people at least come up with a new phrase for ‘you don’t have enough experience’?  How about… ‘you don’t have enough experience’?  That works for me.  I stopped applying while I re-evaluate my strategy.  Which is what I’m supposed to be doing now, except reading several chapters a week and modeling computer systems has not allowed me to work on any side projects that require additional thinking.  I’ve been crocheting up a storm, but I feel like I could do this with my eyes closed.  Very little thinking.  And visually pleasing.  And real.  That’s the funny thing about computers and computer systems.  Our world is being incrementally virtualized.  Virtual friends, virtual followers, virtual stores where I do most of my shopping… even a virtual recreation of my daughter’s kindergarten class so I can ‘be there’ even though I’m not.  It’s great and odd.  So crochet is my physical, creative counterbalance for computers.  Meditative art therapy… ahhhh.  Relaxation, adaptation… I will give all my critics’ advice on how to ‘show my passion’ and get ready to ‘hit the ground running’ some serious consideration as I put the finishing touches on my cozy new red scarf…

My Big Red Scarf

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